Week 11. 12. 13.

I'm not sure what I was thinking in my last post when I said I would share my two-week progress. It's been three weeks. You can understand why my time management is poor at best.

I'll tell you right up front that this post is NOT going to be about numbers!

Just came off a ten day vacation, so my progress has been.. what's the opposite of progress.. sighh. But I ain't sorry! I refuse to eat flaxseed and fiber and weeds when I'm trying to enjoy myself! Or maybe it's not even that so much as they don't serve such things at fast food places. No, it's the first thing. Anyway, ten days is a long time to go careening off one's game plan.

But I had some time to reflect. Here's what I decided. This blog is so much about the progress I have made. I post a percentage each week, and then we know if I have accomplished what I set out to do or if I'm a big fat failure. But I realized something while sipping on my carbonated pineapple beverage, sitting in 95 degree heat and reading my book by the pool.. and that is that all I really care about is FEELING good. Not looking good. Unfortunately, there really isn't a "biggest loser" method for measuring how good a person feels. I guess what I'm proposing is dropping the Percentage Lost aspect of this blog and just posting about what motivates me during the week and makes me feel better, more healthy.

This blog just got 72% more boring. Now I really AM a loser, baby.

Here's the other part. I no longer think my goal was realistic. I often find that when I'm only thinking about what the scale says, I tend to go a bit overboard with my dieting methods. Everyone who knows me knows that I always have a thing.. one week it's high fiber, the next it's low sugar, the week after that it's high unsaturated fat, etc. And that's probably fine most of the time, but for me it results in that feeling that I am FAILING if I'm not committing to the current borderline obsessive goal. Someone told me once to try to abide by the 80/20 rule. Eat well 80% of the time. That's it. Don't worry about the rest. That is so not me! I figure what's the point of trying to do something only 80% of the time? Or in other words, why shoot for a low B? And I guess the answer (for me) is that if I can't get an A, I lose interest and hope altogether.

I realize that by declaring my new 80/20 rule that I'm actually just reinforcing my bad habit of always having a "thing".. believe me, I get it.

Oh, back to my other point. I don't think my 22.3% is realistic anymore. I'm at my pre-pregnancy weight, and while I don't think that I was at my goal weight then either, I do realize that I'm close enough now that I should be looking more for a way to make sustainable changes, rather than thinking so much about what I can do to make a change for this week.

Make sense?

So I guess that's it for this week. Next week: Flaxseed, Fiber and Weeds. Can't wait.